Crying

I cant say what i think
cos words choke in my throat
tears just arent enough
It's time to grab my coat

I cant stay here
all i do is cry
im not helping
guess this is goodbye

chorus
Tears coyuld build an ocean
but thats nothing without a boat
could cry you a river
but then how would we stay afloat
I could stop this flooding
but you knocked out my resistance
Im sorry i'm giving up
i just dont have your persistance

Dont bother saving me
Need to do this alone
i look like im drowing
but im escaping your control

I cant stay here
please dont ask why
im not helping
guess this is goodbye

Chorus

i dont know what to do
i guess all things come to end
i feel like im losing
please dont stop trying my friend
but you have to have some
one to be able to lose them

chorus

i cant stay here
all i do is cry
i cant stay here
please dont ask why
this isnt helping
guess that was my goodbye

Fickle

You're chamging and i dont know what to say
it just feels like you're getting further each day
i smile i laugh as i struggle through
But the truth is i dunno how to live without you

Chorus
I dont know how to say this
or explain how i feel
But i dont know how to handle it
when you try to tell me how to feel
I'm not like you and we're not the same
i dont want to be part of your stupid game
I know myself but i dont know you
I cant help cos i dont know what to do

I'm pushed away like i dont even matter
But im the one whos there when your lifes in tatters
I'd hold you hand and pull you back
You;re having fun while i pick up your slack

Chorus

I cant hold on so
I want be second best much longer
theres someone new each week
and im wishing i was stronger
I cant let you go
But i really won't do this to myself
I'm tired of trying to
give the help to everybody else

Chorus

And yet for some reason i love you
Even after everything you've put me through

Gig Memories

heyhey guys

so ive calmed down a bit since the youme@six gig... eventhough i get the random flash back and freak out majorly inside but i met jonathan cook so you'll allow me that

But its really not just meeting jnathan that made it my best night ever... allthough that realy topped it off.. but spending the night with my mates made it sooo amazing really i love them guys so much... they really helped make that night for example i think trekking round Newcastle getting lost getting directions in subway finding starbucks picking up the wrong order then spitting it all down myself is a memory that will stay with me for ever... but only cos it was with beth... and being at the gig practically at the barrier for the majority of the gig was awesome... cos i was with my best friend... Elly...and the same at the Jonas concert wehre i stood next to her and we danced and sang outrageously out of tune and then clapped for nick all the way through his speech... and the journey home form the Jonas Brothers concert is forever burned into my memory because i spent the majority of it trying to comfort Laura after she broke done cos Kevin looked at her... although its not a particularly pleasant memory im always gunna remember when emma passed out in the moch pit at boyslikegirls and how me and natalie had to drag her out... having a conversation with the support band on the way and natalie god what can i say about natalie... when she fell over in the auditions set on our fist gig and i didnt realise... the jonas gig when her and ellys voice went all hamsterish... at boyslikegirls when she was hopping round on one foot in puddles while i bounced round getting the auteur to sign her converse cos the lead singer was wearing the same pair... the youmeatsix gig where she got the most amazing picture of her and Josh franceschi and the way she moshes like hell so much her ribs hurt...

so you see what i'm trying to say is that while its completely out of this world to go and see my fave bands and even more unbelievable to be actualy able to meet them... the best thing about them is being able to go with some of the people who make my world really rock... the memories that are gunna really stay are those ones cos they;re the ones that made me laugh or cry or scream or whatever... i lvoe you guys and i wouldnt change you for the world!

Lots of Love

Ciao y'all