So here's the deal...
i haven't been myself lately... i haven't been myself in one hell of a long time. i don't know what's wrong with me. i just don't know who i am right now. i guess im floating around in some kind of limbo, trying to figure out who i'm supposed to be and it's just that little bit out of reach. and in a way it's kind of heartbreaking. cos i don't know what i'm supposed to be doing, or saying or even being. it's difficult to know how to act, where to go, who to turn to, who to trust. i try my best to keep a smile on my face when im with people, when im with my friends. but when it's just me it's all i can do not to just break down. i spend the majority of my time at home crying or arguing or angry. it's no way to live. i am so scared cos this isnt me, this isnt who i was. but i guess it's just a part of who i'm becoming. i hope i find it soon because i hate being lost all the time.
... if you think you can help me find myself.... im taking applications from now on

Finding Me

I don’t think I’ve ever felt
That it’s ok to just be me
Looking for someone to prove
This is who I’m meant to be

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I wont let myself feel
Don’t make this you or me
I know how it feels to crash and burn
But now I want to know
What it’s like to be free

You’re not the right person
Wish my heart could hear my head
You’ll never feel for me
My hopes fly like lead

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Love is a big word
And I find it hard to say
I’m not the easiest person to care for
I’ll push you away

The feeling scares me
So I’ll run and hide
Its something you’d have to deal with
If you ever wanted to stand at my side

I can’t help who I’ve become
It’s just who I’m forced to be
Maybe in me finding you
I’ll find that missing part of me

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