I Didn't Wanna Fall

ok just a quick random song i had the idea for so i quickly typed up some lyrics... its not really finished yet but i wanted to post it so i didnt have to save it on my dad's computer lololstill tell me what you think though

I didn’t want to feel myself fall
I didn’t want to fly
I didn’t want my stomach to squirm
As I swiftly tumbled through the sky

Cos I knew eventually
I would feel like this
I knew I wouldn’t feel your arms
Nor the taste of your kiss
I knew we wouldn’t be forever
Eventually you’d break my heart
I’d be sat here crying in the corner
When we finally reached this part
I didn’t want to fall in love
Knowing it wouldn’t last
Didn’t want to feel this pain
As I leave my happiness in the past

Your eyes tripped me up
Your smile shot me down
I didn’t want to feel this joy
As our happiness made me drown

Cos I knew eventually
I would feel like this
I knew I wouldn’t feel your arms
Nor the taste of your kiss
I knew we wouldn’t be forever
Eventually you’d break my heart
I’d be sat here crying in the corner
When we finally reached this part
I didn’t want to fall in love
Knowing it wouldn’t last
Didn’t want to feel this pain
As I leave my happiness in the past

I wonder if you realise
How it was for me to enjoy
The summer we spent together
The walls you managed to destroy

Cos I knew eventually
I would feel like this
I knew I wouldn’t feel your arms
Nor the taste of your kiss
I knew we wouldn’t be forever
Eventually you’d break my heart
I’d be sat here crying in the corner
When we finally reached this part
I didn’t want to fall in love
Knowing it wouldn’t last
Didn’t want to feel this pain
As I leave my happiness in the past

And now I’m stuck
Sitting here in agony
Craving the part of me
You ripped from my body
I didn’t want to love you
Knowing I’d always want you
Knowing you’d be leaving me
Knowing you’d hurt me repeatedly
It was so hard to admit it
So hard to face the truth
And even now after it’s over
It’s still too hard to say

I love you

LISTS

so ive been considering some lists i keep n i think they're up for a reshuffle so here we go whoop enjoy lol

Top 5 Bands
Jonas brothers are always going to be top of my list cos in my opinion they are extremely inspirational talented young men so all you haters can go piss off n tell someone who gives a damn about tour opinion lol
Boyslikegirls
Metro Station
Forever the Sickest Kids
All Time Low
i rejiggled blg lol after i got obbsessed with martin and after the gig lol

Top 5 sexiest guys in music
Joe Jonas
Martin Johnson
Trace Cyrus
Jonathan Cook
Alex Gaskarth
What can i say theres just something sexy about a guy with a voice

My idols
Demi Lovato
Joe Jonas
Trace Cyrus
Martin Johnson is only this far down cos im convinced he's on drugs lol
Miley Cyrus
Demi overtook joe lol cos i decided i like her as my idol more basically

Im planning on doing some more song writing soooon so keep tuned!!!

Love y'all

Ciao guys

Get away

lol nuther one about my parents... these arent really songs tbh its just e needing a vent formy feelings n grabbing a piecce of paper and writing some lyrics down i dont think about it i dont reread it or go over it this is exactly what i wrote down when i was feeling this way

When will you realise
i'm more than you know
You see sun and rainbows
inside there's thunder and snow
I can't go on pretending
that i'm fine and it's ok
im at the ens of my tether
and the ends are starting to fray

Chrous
I cant hold on much longer
not when theres nothing to grip
I dont see the point in staying
Not when i'm sure to slip
I need to get away
out of your trap
I need to get away
out of this crap
There's nothing to hold me here
and so much more out there
i need to get away
and live my life somewhere

I need to be appreciated
for who i really am
this isnt just some flood of tears
its nothing you can damn
Dont say your sorry now
It's too late i'm gone
I wouldnt believe it anyway
Thats the point in this song

Chorus

Bridge
I need to break free
be true to myself and only me
i dont wanna be held down
where lies are the only sound
I am me and noone else
don't try to change me to suit yourself
I make mistakes but so do you
Don't tell me that you're perfect too

Chorus

Escape

OK so these next two songs are basically about my relationship with my parents sooo yeah they arent too good

Everything is black
My senses are numb
An unexpected attack
And my feelings are gone
Anger rising in my throat
And hate choking out words
I need to get away
Forget all this pain

I swallow I gulp
Trying to hold back
It all ends up inside
Slowly building it up

Chorus
I don't wanna feel like this
I don't wanna fake my smile
There's nothing i can do
I need to escape

The anger clouds my judgement
I can't feel anything at all
I'm on a knife edge
And I'm threatening to fall
Needing someone to catch me
Inisde i cry out
But no one can hear me
so into the abyss i fall

I swallo i gulp
Trying to hold back
It all ends up inside
Slowly building it up

Chorus
I don't wanna argue
I don't wanna cause you pain
There's nothing i can do
I need an escape

Bridge
Something to hold onto
Anything at all
Somewhere i feel loved
and im not allowed to fall
someonewho can hold me
in masculine arms so tight
sometime when im older
ill look back and laugh

Chorus
I don't wanna feel like this
I don't wanna fake my smile
there's nothing i can do
i need to escape
I dont wanna argue
i dont wanna cause you pain
there's nothing i can do
I need an escape
I want to escape

Your opinions are valued

BLG

heyhey guys!!


whoooooooop


BLG was out of this world seriously amazing i loved it so much best gig so far i am thinking for me def at least their music is amazing already but its 1oo times better live martin is so amazing i bought a hoody and its amazing lol AND they're coming bck over in april if i can get the money i am so going back


speaking of martin did y'all see what happened to him in Glasgow?? not cool guys at all he got jumped and he looked horrendous its shocking what some people will do really really sick... i was talking to Laura about it last night and i started feeling really really bad like i was feeling physically sick and like i was gunna start crying which is a slight overeaction tbh i was like get a grip... so i did n listened to a load of BLG music n watched their vids n stuff n then i had a random thought,... Martin johnson has beautiful eyes if he has blackened eyes im gunna go off it which of course he did so i wasnt best impressed... urgh im starting to feel sick again just thinking about it


booooooo


then i found some old demo BLG stuff which is actualy amazingn laura offered to download it for me but since ive broken my laptop and ipod... long story... i didnt see the point atm but i might ask her when i get it sorted and see if she'll get some of their AOL session stuff and the hero/heroine vid cos i love that lolol


i'm gunna post some more songs i've written so they'll be up in a second if y'all hang on lol

lol at kevin here bless him... n joe needs to grow his hair back like this lol it looks awesome

Love Y'all

see yah in a bit

Happy Memories

i wrote this song before i went to bed last night... well actually after i went to bed but nvm i didnt have time to post it so here yah are if yah wanna read it... if yah do please comment and dont forget to vote on the poll at the side
sooooo this song is about when you split up with someone and you want to hate them and forget about them and move on but you cant because all you can think about is the good times and fun you had together so you're kinda stuck cos you cant stay in the past but at the same time you cant move forward either i'm getting so frustrated writing this lol argh annoyed at the situation ahahha but here we go

It’s been about a month
Since I heard your voice
You’d think I’d be getting better
It’s been a while
Since I felt your touch
You’d think it'd be over it by now
But I just can’t get you off my mind
Outta my thoughts
Out of my head

Chorus
Why do you have to be perfect?
Why do you have to be the one?
This would be so much easier
If I could find your faults
If I could remember the fights
If I could recall the pain
But all I can think about
Is all the happy memories

It’s been to long
Since you were by my side
You’d think I’d find someone else
It’s not been long enough
Since you broke my heart
I just can’t move on
And I just can’t get you off my mind
Outta my thoughts
Out of my head

Chorus
Why do you have to be perfect?
Why do you have to be the one?
This would be so much easier
If I could find your faults
If I could remember the fights
If I could recall the pain
But all I can think about
Is all the happy memories

The times you’d make me laugh
The times you’d hold me in your arms
And you’d whisper in my ears
The times you’d kiss my lips
The times you’d curl your fingers in my hair
And you’d brush your fingers on my skin
All the happy memories
Are swirling in my head
And stopping me from
Ever forgetting you

Chorus
Why do you have to be perfect?
Why do you have to be the one?
This would be so much easier
If I could find your faults
If I could remember the fights
If I could recall the pain
But all I can think about
Is all the happy memories

there you go enjoy but dont forget to COMMENT!!!!

needs a name though

last one for tonight i think... seriously did this one in about ten fifteen minutes lol

Don’t do this
Not now
Not tonight
Don’t do this
Don’t build me up
To throw me down

Chorus
After everything we’ve been through
You’d think it’d be something other than goodbye
I expected more from you than to walk away
And leave me standing here under the iron sky
It was raining now its pouring
The lightning sparking in the distance
I needed you to smile to breathe
Now what’s the point in my existence?

You promised
This wouldn’t happen
You wouldn’t break my heart
You promised
You’d take care of me
That you wouldn’t rip me apart

Chorus
After everything we’ve been through
You’d think it’d be something other than goodbye
I expected more from you than to walk away
And leave me standing here under the iron sky
It was raining now its pouring
The lightning sparking in the distance
I needed you to smile to breathe
Now what’s the point in my existence?

Bridge
You were everything I ever want
Everything I’d ever need
Until the point you broke my heart
When you left me crying on the floor
I never want to see you upset
Even through the pain you put me through
I’ll go quietly if that’s what you want
But I need you to know it’s not what I want

Chorus
After everything we’ve been through
You’d think it’d be something other than goodbye
I expected more from you than to walk away
And leave me standing here under the iron sky
It was raining now its pouring
The lightning sparking in the distance
I needed you to smile to breathe
Now what’s the point in my existence?

laura likes this one lolol but tell me what yooooooou think??
love y'all ciao guys