Hold Me Back

Just a stupis song i wrote the other day when i was pissed at my parents... its not brilliant and definitely not one of my best but nvm enojoy XD

You push me down
again and again
keep feet on the ground
to stop your pain
you dont seem to care
its my life to live
you're crushing my dreams
and you're blaming me

chorus
you cant hold me back
cos im going to shine
the darkest star in the sky
just wait for my time
im gonna fly this nest
and im not coming back
dont wait up for me
when life's turning black

i can't live like this
when its all bout you
im better than this
Im better than you
im more than you know
more than you could be
i suggest you lemme go
so that i can fly free

chorus

i dunno what you want
how to keep you pleased
i cant be more than who i am
even if you keep me on my knees
i have so much potential
you waont let me use
im fighting your rile
what do i have to lose

chorus

you're the reason im here
and my reason to leave
the only way to escape
the only thing i believe
im hapy im going
i wont say goodbye
but you can watch me go
watch my fly through the sky

Playing With Fire

Little bitty personal poem i wrote... i actually really like it and im very proud if you know me you'll know that doesnt happen very often... so please please please please comment i really wanna know if you guys think its as god as i do :S and yes i am begging now... please?

back tracking through memories
reminiscing the past
funny how it seems different now
crying at time that made me laugh

chorus

i want to say i have no regrets
the words taste like lies on my lips
i dont wanna believe the truth lying
awake longing for fingers dancing on my hips

i hate myself for loving the person you weren't
you can only play for fire for so long before you heart is burned

was there ever anything
did you ever feel that spark
cos the way you seemed with her
felt like your daggers hitting their mark

chorus

i never knew i could feel this way
i didnt know this pain was real
i guess its time to face the facts
i'll never understand how you make me feel

chorus

maybe i meant nothing
maybe i meant it all
not gunna sit back and wait
see you laugh watch me fall

hope you're happy with her
hope shes akll you want
i dont wanna be her anymore
you have a good life now

chorus

well hello there... LIFE

hey my lovelies XD

so i havent written in such a long time :S sorry since we got ymas tickets in fact... n that feels like a long time oh diddles

well lots of stuffs has happened

guess who's going to see the amazing fantastical FTSK again... urm yeah me XD and elly lol love yah.... guess who's playing football (soccer) with FTSK... ooh yeah me again XD... guess who's got a direct message and two replies from the awesome MR JONATHAN COOK along with meeting him in person... that would be moi XD in that line of things life is good... in fact life is awesome

having issues with my parents... whats new? lol but im getting through it bit by bit with my amazing friends who have my back to help me love you guys sooooooo much

WE FINISHED SCHOOOOOOOOL... yups our last exam was yesterday and i think we all pretty much aced Textiles now we've got the whole summer ahead of us before 6th form XD its going to be amazing i cant believe we've actually finished :S im gunna miss it im gunna miss my teachers but knowing us we'll be back there pretty soonish... Uncle D might be giving us some football training anyway so its all good

right what else...

i got my hair died by the awesome Miss natalie walsh underneath my frigne is all purplish now XD happy happy happy thank you Holmes i'll post a picture sometime when i get one i like hahahahahha

right im going to get ready ill be back in a little bit to blog this song that i wrote

Ciao for now my lovelies

xxxxxx

YOU MET AT SIX TICKETS.... AGAIN!

OMFG GUESS WHO GOT MORE YOUMEATSIX TICKETS??? YUP THATS RIGHT MOI! and Natalie and Elly and Emma but this aint their blog so they can go do one... not really lolol i love them lots and lots n its going to be epic to be at a ymas gig again with natalie n elly and emma's coming along this time so it'll be sooooo much fun i cant wait... but im gunna have to... its in december -_- but i dont care... whats freaking me out the most is that by then we'll bein college n ill be 17 n i could possibly drive :S its hurting my head thinking about it

we have to go allll the way down to Doncaster but i dont care its like an hour n a halfs drive away but im not driving no no no no Natalie's dad is taking us down and he's even coming to the gig with us cos he's cool like that... i wish my dad was more like that lolol im just worried about afterward... cos we will wait n meet josh n etc again lolol and it means we cant leave college earlier cos the plan was to get the train n leave for lunch n just not return mwahahahahaha lol but never mind its going to be so much easier n so much cheaper thanks to Natalies dad thank you Natalies Dad!!! XD


im getting slightly hyper thinking about it and i think im babbling slightly...


beth isnt coming this time she's going to see Biffy Clyro with her with her boyfriend instead whoch is awesome for her and will be an amazing gig we will miss her at ymas though... we'll say hey to Matt for her


I WANT MORE BANDS TO RELEASE UK TOUR DATES... I WANT BLG TO GET THEIR ARSES BACK OVER HERE I WANT ATL TO ANNOUNCWE TOUR DATES AND I WANT AN FTSK UK TOUR!!!!! please?


Im in a gig mood now i wanna gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo


im going now before i bore you all senseless


oh wait pictures.... what can i post????

THATS YOU ME AT SIX... for those poor sad deprived peoples who dont know :S i feel so sorry for you

GO LISTEN NOW COS THEY ARE EPIC

CIAO GUYS LOVE Y'ALL

Crying

I cant say what i think
cos words choke in my throat
tears just arent enough
It's time to grab my coat

I cant stay here
all i do is cry
im not helping
guess this is goodbye

chorus
Tears coyuld build an ocean
but thats nothing without a boat
could cry you a river
but then how would we stay afloat
I could stop this flooding
but you knocked out my resistance
Im sorry i'm giving up
i just dont have your persistance

Dont bother saving me
Need to do this alone
i look like im drowing
but im escaping your control

I cant stay here
please dont ask why
im not helping
guess this is goodbye

Chorus

i dont know what to do
i guess all things come to end
i feel like im losing
please dont stop trying my friend
but you have to have some
one to be able to lose them

chorus

i cant stay here
all i do is cry
i cant stay here
please dont ask why
this isnt helping
guess that was my goodbye

Fickle

You're chamging and i dont know what to say
it just feels like you're getting further each day
i smile i laugh as i struggle through
But the truth is i dunno how to live without you

Chorus
I dont know how to say this
or explain how i feel
But i dont know how to handle it
when you try to tell me how to feel
I'm not like you and we're not the same
i dont want to be part of your stupid game
I know myself but i dont know you
I cant help cos i dont know what to do

I'm pushed away like i dont even matter
But im the one whos there when your lifes in tatters
I'd hold you hand and pull you back
You;re having fun while i pick up your slack

Chorus

I cant hold on so
I want be second best much longer
theres someone new each week
and im wishing i was stronger
I cant let you go
But i really won't do this to myself
I'm tired of trying to
give the help to everybody else

Chorus

And yet for some reason i love you
Even after everything you've put me through

Gig Memories

heyhey guys

so ive calmed down a bit since the youme@six gig... eventhough i get the random flash back and freak out majorly inside but i met jonathan cook so you'll allow me that

But its really not just meeting jnathan that made it my best night ever... allthough that realy topped it off.. but spending the night with my mates made it sooo amazing really i love them guys so much... they really helped make that night for example i think trekking round Newcastle getting lost getting directions in subway finding starbucks picking up the wrong order then spitting it all down myself is a memory that will stay with me for ever... but only cos it was with beth... and being at the gig practically at the barrier for the majority of the gig was awesome... cos i was with my best friend... Elly...and the same at the Jonas concert wehre i stood next to her and we danced and sang outrageously out of tune and then clapped for nick all the way through his speech... and the journey home form the Jonas Brothers concert is forever burned into my memory because i spent the majority of it trying to comfort Laura after she broke done cos Kevin looked at her... although its not a particularly pleasant memory im always gunna remember when emma passed out in the moch pit at boyslikegirls and how me and natalie had to drag her out... having a conversation with the support band on the way and natalie god what can i say about natalie... when she fell over in the auditions set on our fist gig and i didnt realise... the jonas gig when her and ellys voice went all hamsterish... at boyslikegirls when she was hopping round on one foot in puddles while i bounced round getting the auteur to sign her converse cos the lead singer was wearing the same pair... the youmeatsix gig where she got the most amazing picture of her and Josh franceschi and the way she moshes like hell so much her ribs hurt...

so you see what i'm trying to say is that while its completely out of this world to go and see my fave bands and even more unbelievable to be actualy able to meet them... the best thing about them is being able to go with some of the people who make my world really rock... the memories that are gunna really stay are those ones cos they;re the ones that made me laugh or cry or scream or whatever... i lvoe you guys and i wouldnt change you for the world!

Lots of Love

Ciao y'all